Burn Out

So the last few years, certainly the last 5 have been pretty intense for me, in that time I have had 7 jobs, moved to London and had relationship stress.

So it’s no wonder that I was continuously ill for 3 months at the end of last year/beginning of this year, my body just shut down. It wasn’t until I went to the doctor last month that they said it was burnout possibly depression, I had all the tell-tale signs of it:

  • Chronic fatigue – I could sleep 12 hours and still be tired
  • Increased illness – I just got one thing after another, and having been on antibiotics as well, I couldn’t fight anything off
  • Anger/Irritability – I feel sorry for my housemate at the time, even leaving a spoon in the sink was enough to irritate, just wasn’t me at all.
  • Anxiety – I think this made me a bit clingy, and I am not a clingy person, I like my space and own company generally, typical INFJ.
  • Weight – just dropped off me.

This was compounded by the fact I am not great at talking about how I feel, I always try to deal with things internally, which does not work, clearly.

So how did I get over it? Well, my job situation is now stable and has been for a while, I am also waiting for an appointment for cognitive behaviour treatment, this will help me deal with stressful situations better, and hopefully learn to be a bit more open and less closed off.

And, finally, I had my wisdom tooth out, meaning I had to stay off work for a week (especially with the sedative) and I slept so well, and really properly rested, I don’t think I have had any proper rest for over a year (and I haven’t had a holiday in 8 years but save that tiny violin for another time).

This week, I have felt more myself than I have in about 9-10 months, so apologies to anyone I have come into contact with during that time, I wasn’t me.

2 Comments

  1. I hope you’re ok. Take a break from everything for a while and get yourself rested till you’re better and make sure you do it right too no half hearted recovery. You are an amazing person Laura (you have no idea just how amazing I’ve always thought you are) and you deserve to be happy

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  2. Sorry for leaving the thing anon. I didn’t wanna seen all stalkery by reading your blog. And yes I know that makes me look more stalkery. Anyway get yourself right 🙂

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